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FYI: I’m a 16 year old girl

Does anyone know if it’s possible to be a "partial" psychopath? I think I might be one, but then I might just be exaggerating things. I read that psychopaths/sociopaths have no emotions or conscience and manipulate people. I do have emotions and a conscience, but sort of… inconsistently. Like for example I’m very close to my grandma, but my grandpa and I don’t really talk because he’d rather do woodworking in his basement. I recently learned that he has a kidney tumor, and I just… don’t care. I pretended to be sad about it, but I just don’t feel anything. If it was my grandma or one of my brothers I’d feel awful, but I don’t.

I just don’t seem to care about things if no one is watching. For example: if I have a cold and my mom tells me to use disposable plates, I only do it when she is around and switch to regular ones when she leaves. A few times I’ve wiped the floor with a family member’s clothes or face towels if there is nothing else around.

Also, I keep having these weird sexual fantasies about machinery and violence. It’s hard to explain. Even though I’m not very strong physically I have a pretty violent mind. When I was little I killed my pet bird (though I did feel guilty about it) and tortured insects and fish I caught in a lake. I also cut up all my toys. When I got to be too old for dolls, I started making paper airplanes and hacking at them with scissors.

I heard that psychopaths lie a lot and are manipulative. For me that’s partially true: I lie to people I don’t like or don’t care about, but feel kinda bad about lying to people who like me. I don’t lie to my dad or a teacher who likes me, but I constantly lie to my mom (who is really rude and sometimes abusive and probably bipolar). I don’t consciously manipulate people, but sometimes I find myself acting super sincere with teachers so they cut me some slack. Like if I ask, "Do I need a hall pass to go to the bathroom?" in a certain way, they let me go without being suspicious that I’ll go somewhere else. Even though I’m good with adults like that, I’m kinda awkward with people my own age. I just can’t think of witty comebacks fast enough, and if I talk to other teenagers who aren’t my friends for too long I just get sort of mentally exhausted. I do have friends, but not too many .More like a few close friends instead of a whole social group.

So do I sound like just a weird person, or kind of a "partial" psychopath?

Yes, you do seem to have some psycopathic tendencies. Not all psychopaths are evil though like the media likes to portray them, and they are much more common than people realize

2 Responses

1. Little Maiden Says:
   January 11th, 2012 at 5:31 am

   kind of a "partial" psychopath.
   References :
   I am the same way.
   lol because sometimes I really don’t give a **** but then other times I am in tears because of people’s problems. Mostly I am in tears because of people’s problems, but every now and then I don’t feel any emotion at all, and it is (( maybe that is just my depression though. *shrugs*
   lol but I spend all night up and worrying about other people it is giving me serious problems its not even funny I can’t sleep or anything. Well that’s just another thing I’ll never tell my mom.

2. *Blush* Says:
   January 11th, 2012 at 5:54 am

   Yes, you do seem to have some psycopathic tendencies. Not all psychopaths are evil though like the media likes to portray them, and they are much more common than people realize
   References :

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